Weekend Sucks
This weekend was really bad. Even before this was no better. Its been quite a sometime when I wanted a weekend to come. I just wanted to work more and more. I hate friday's the most. I know this sounds insane but still thats how it works for me.
Each friday I come from office 10 PM. Because I don't want to go home. What is that I do after coming home. Stare at the empty walls on my room. Even I left my interest/hobby of playing guitar. Its better to do work; learn something. And for that I need to be in office. Because after coming home the life just sucks. Its like I am in a been encapsulated, I am choking from inside. No one to talk to. No one to share anything.
I have been fed up of the life outside the office space. I don't want any holidays, I don't want any parties to attend to. The reason for not going to a party because its been enough that of watching people drinking and dancing stupidly. I don't drink and I so hate dancing. I don't like to watch any sports. I don't like to go to watch movies. I think I am missing something important in my life. The one thing, I still don't know what is that. But its definitely needed the most. During college days I never felt that alone or depressed. But what has changed now?
I always surf through my mobile's entire contact list and I find no one to talk to. I think I miss a friend or to say a girl friend. I just wanted a voice on the other end to be there, even if I don't say anything the presence of that will relax me. What I want is still not clear, but if this last for more..I have to get all my strength to cope up with this.
AMEN!!!
